As a writer that used to frequently publish short stories, editorials, poetry, articles, essays, and other literary-related pieces prior to converting to business writing - bars and booze provided the atmosphere and ambiance I needed to feel like I was on a cafe terrace in Paris all the time. (In fact, I actually took half a dozen real writing trips to Paris, France back in the day.) Cafes owned me. Inspiration.
I wrote, and wrote, and wrote, then stopped and talked, and talked, and talked more. (Ask anyone.) The writing was good, and the booze never had a negative effect. (I even had a few local columns at the time, and was self-syndicated in a few dozen other places fairly regularly.) Perhaps booze did lead me to fuss with editors, maybe....
Taxi drivers were at once my best friends and worst enemies; they began to hate my late night calls and avoid them. Even being tipped well doesn't make "guy losing girl" stories from the back seat any more interesting.
I always viewed even the worst local pickup bars, lounges, and dives are being something special, somewhere Hemingway would hangout at if he lived in my town. Never have I ever been less than an incurable romantic with a nostalgic heart. That's me, and probably always will be.
I have (past tense) met hundreds of women in bars, and developed scores of ill-fated relationships with them, for varying purposes - dreaming of sudden love or maybe just lust. Sometimes something similar happened, often it did not. I was slightly shy without booze, yet a full-fledged Cassanova with it. Go figure.
Following many years, the alcohol eventually took a physical toll on my body, after serving as a sort-of God-given prescription to help me make it through my parent's individual sicknesses and deaths (as a single adult only-child), and other prior woes (many of which I allowed it to create). Shakes, headaches, soreness.... minor legalities.
Perhaps I should have taken a cue and cut-back or stopped drinking years earlier. I had hints. Once a woman approached me in a local bar/restaurant with a magazine in-hand wanting an autograph over my column. I gladly signed it. Then she said,"I am teaching my grandchild to read, and I always use your column." Ouch!
I don't know what the future holds, but if I ever do drink again it had better not be much at a time. This life has been quite a ride, but has had a few wrecks along the way. Can you relate? Many surely can.
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